Guilt, shame, depression, suppression, turmoil, acceptance.
At first glance those words would appear to not have much in common. Other than their feelings and things that lead to one another and back again.
However I'm going to try to put those in perspective as they seem to often be with biid,
and as usual I'll be phrasing in terms with amputation, and more specifically as it applies to me.
Recurring thoughts and desire to remove the limb. Usually led guilt and/or shame, being unable to suppress those thoughts can lead to depression. In addition to being unable to suppress or control those though, also being unable to adequately and safely act upon those thoughts and intense desires, can lead to some great inner turmoil, and depression.
However, accepting it is like a double double edge sword (yes, I did intend to type double in a double).
Accepting it can remove or at least reduce the guilt and shame for those thoughts. Which can alleviate the depression and turmoil in regard to those thoughts.
However, some unintended effects of accepting it can be the reduction in attempting to suppress those thoughts and desired. With the less suppressing of those thoughts and desire, the more the occur.
And with the more occurrences of those thought and desires, the more depressed one gets as they still can't act on those intense desires. With anecdotal evidence, once one has successfully acted on it, those desires (and other accompaniments) subside seemingly instantaneously.
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